These are the sounds in my head.
I hear them when I'm in a meeting, on a call, boarding the train, greeting my neighbors, picking up my dry cleaning - you get the point. I have so many balls in the air right now (as we all do) and I really don't care what I catch and what falls. I want a court date and I want to bring Baby N home. End of story. Anything non-adoption related...ech, whatEVAH.
I admire everyone who has gone down this road ahead of us because I don't recall any whiners; only loads of stoic fellow-bloggers. Well, to be honest, now that we've reached this stage, all I want to do is whine. And not for attention. It's purely because I don't think anyone should be expecting anything of me right now except to wait by my phone for our call that we have a court date, we passed and it's time to travel. HA! Not too much to ask right?
Apparently the world doesn't stop when you're waiting for a court date (or to be on wait list, or to get your referral, or for your travel date, or even for your return home and you begin to hunker down with your new family). You must continue to deal with your daily responsibilities and not lose focus. I AM trying and on most days, consider it a success...then come the moments of fluff in others. I don't like fluff in others. I like strong people who care about others.
A fellow Gladney family was awaiting word today on the outcome of their second court date. On pins and needles all day to find out if they passed, only to hear no news is coming out of Ethiopia today because all phones and internet are down in the region. Court proceeded as normal and issued their decisions; families just won't know these results until tomorrow. They're not complaining. They're waiting patiently for their news.
So, to hear someone in the elevator completely devastated over their iPad or that 3G isn't fast enough .... *enter Charlie Brown's teacher*
This is where I drift off to a land I have yet to visit where our son currently lives with frequent blackouts, poverty, limited resources and where any type of internet is a luxury. I can't focus on anything BUT this and going to get him. Nor can I help but think what's really worth complaining about in life.
I have nothing to complain about.